my life

I need to simplify my life too. I want to be able to come and go as I please, have friends, hang out with friends and family without being made to feel as if I'm doing something wrong. Or being called to bed if I'm outside talking w/ my son and his girlfriend. Or someone suddenly up my butt when the phone rings and they want to hear and comment on my conversation. Or being made to feel as if I'm a bad person just because I'm going to a bar w/ friends to have a drink and listen to drunks sing Karioke. I am doing nothing wrong, and I have nothing to hide, and yet I'm made to feel as if I am doing something wrong. So what if I like doing things for my kids and grandkids, and so what if I choose to spend all my free time w/ them and a friend if I so choose? It's my life and I should be able to do what makes me happy. Don't people realize that words wound deep? I can't just ignore mean words and actions and still act as if I'm in love when the person I'm with doesn't act like they love me when they want to control me and change me. You watch, he'll call my cell phone and beep me all night while I'm out.